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Rachel didn't think she'd ever been so happy to have the flu in her life. Because it was the flu, hitting her hard after a week - almost two - of teasing with exhaustion and intermittent nausea, worrying enough to have her heading out to a drugstore for a pregnancy test. A test that had failed spectacularly, according to the test she'd had done later at the clinic which told her, definitively, that she was not pregnant. Nope, not in the least, despite the evil colored stick she'd ended up with at home. If there were an actual manufacturer she could sue for emotional stress, she might have done it, even in this ghost version of New York. False positive her ass, more like false nightmare-inducing panic attack.

But here she was, a couple days later, curled up on her couch with a heating pad, a mug of chamomile-ginger-something tea, and a remote control, flipping across TV channels while working her way through a third box of Kleenex. The apartment was a mess, there were take-out boxes everywhere, her entire body felt like it was in revolt, but for the moment, she was glad for it.

Because there was no way in hell she was ready to have that conversation with her boyfriend. Not now, and not ever.

Date: 2012-12-20 12:59 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Looking Closely)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
Even Aidan had been able to see that Rachel hadn't been feeling well for weeks. The arrival of Suren's body had thrown him off of his usual attentiveness, but he was moving past that now and the best way he knew to do that was to help someone else.

So he was stopping by with tea, soup, and a few books that he thought she might like. He knocked softly on the door to her place, not wanting to wake her if she was sleeping. If she was, he'd just come back later.

Date: 2012-12-20 04:09 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Arms Crossed)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
Aidan pushed open the door and stepped through, holding up the food and drink before him, in case she thought he had other ideas. This was all about making sure that she was resting and had what she needed. She hadn't mentioned being sick to him and he knew why, so he wanted to make up for it.

"Tea and soup?" he asked, shutting the door behind him. "And... maybe a bit of housecleaning."

Date: 2012-12-20 05:49 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Tilted Head)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"I have my moments," he said, heading over to the couching and handing her the soup and the thermos of tea. He wasn't entirely sure what was wrong with her, but tea and soup were good for just about every situation.

"You rest, I'll clean up a bit," he added, leaning over to press a kiss to the top of her head.

Date: 2012-12-20 06:49 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Facing Forward)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"Pumped full of antibiotics," Aidan said, raising up his still healing arm. It wasn't a defense against everything, but his body could likely hold off anything she inadvertently threw at him.

He started cleaning up the carry out mostly and sort any laundry into a pile in the bedroom. It really wasn't all that bad, it was mostly just all spread out. Aidan was tossing a few things away in the bathroom trash when he saw it in there. He hadn't been snooping or looking for anything, but there it was on the top of the trash and he couldn't miss it, the small stick with a little plus sign.

Hands shaking he picked it up and just stared at it for a moment. A positive pregnancy test. He reminded himself that it was possibly not Rachel's. They were careful and he was taking the island birth control. She had been feeling pretty awful though and birth control was never 100% effective.

He continued to stare at it, trying not to think about the possibilities but failing completely. It could mean a family, or it could mean nothing at all. But a family again, his own family with a partner...

Slowly, he walked out of the bathroom and back into the living room, staring at the pregnancy test. He had to know.

"Rachel?"

Date: 2012-12-20 07:14 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Slightly Confused)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"Oh."

Aidan felt himself deflate, tension he didn't even realize he was holding relax out of his muscles. It was a false-positive, no pregnancy. No family, at least for right now. Aidan had to admit that a part of him, a large part, was disappointed. While having a child was definitely something they should plan for, if they ever got to that point, he wouldn't have been unhappy with a surprise one.

"That's... good."

Date: 2012-12-20 07:23 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Disbelief)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"I-"

He sighed and closed his eyes for a moment to think. Did he want kids?

Aidan did. He wanted to have kids and a family again, but he couldn't always separate the pure motives from the selfish, messed up ones. Times with his family, with children, were easily the best times of his life. Even on the island with Martha and Alfie had been all but blissful. Also, family meant humanity to him, a way for him to hold on to that.

"I... had a family the first time I was human. I've always liked kids and a part of me, a large part of me, wants to have kids again. In the right situation and circumstances."

Date: 2012-12-20 07:39 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Default)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"This is the only place I'll ever get to have kids again," he pointed out. That wasn't an option for vampires back home, there was no way for him to have kids of his own outside of having them on the island.

"But that doesn't mean I should. Or that it's the right thing to do."

THAT was a hard truth to admit. What kind of father would he be? He want even very good at being human. "I take it you don't want children?"

Date: 2012-12-21 04:08 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Facing Forward)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
Aidan started to open his mouth to argue. Everyone's parents were all guaranteed to die, whether it was in a few days or in a few centuries, but it was going to happen to everyone. He knew what she was saying though. Putting a child through that would be horrible. The parents wouldn't remember them when they went home but the child left behind would. It was rather selfish.

"I understand," he finally said. "And you're probably right. It would be... selfish to plan for it. Maybe that's why in some ways an accident or an... adoption seems ideal."

Date: 2012-12-22 07:18 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Smirking Are You Sure)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"But not for you," he said, not missing the hesitation in her voice. It wasn't something that they needed to keep discussing at the moment, especially not with her sick and him so emotional after finding the pregnancy test. They probably shouldn't wait too much longer to really discuss it, but now wasn't the time.

"And that's fine. I can respect that," he promised her. Aidan wouldn't push her to change her mind or hold it over her head. He knew that deep down, it was the right choice to make.

Date: 2012-12-23 05:03 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Looking Closely)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"You don't have to apologize," he told her. "Not for something you believe in, not for doing what you believe is right."

Not that it didn't hurt or disappoint him a little. If she had wanted a family it would have been so easy to agree with that choice and not think about it. He did need to think about it though, even though the ultimate answer would probably be that it was a bad idea to have a family here.

Date: 2012-12-24 06:07 pm (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Default)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"Hey," he said, moving over to the couch and sitting down, wrapping his arms around her. "Don't worry about this. You're not pregnant, that's a very good thing."

It was. He knew that it was even if he didn't want to really believe it. This was something he needed to face and admit to whether he wanted to or not.

"You just rest and let me hold your hair back if you start to puke."

Date: 2012-12-27 06:56 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Profile)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"Once you're better, we'll go out and celebrate," he promised, pulling her closer to him and holding her close for the moment. This was a good thing. As unpleasant as the conversation was, it would have been worse had she actually been pregnant, he knew that.

"Drinking. Roller coasters. Smoke cigars. Paint a room. All the things you shouldn't do when pregnant."

Date: 2012-12-29 12:04 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"I don't know. Too bad we can't go to Coney Island," he said. That would actually have been a lot of fun, not that there wasn't a lot to do in New York still.

"But I think you at least deserve a day at the spa and a night out with your boyfriend that isn't about a dead body, drunkenness, or talks you'd rather not have."

Date: 2012-12-30 11:45 pm (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Tilted Head)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"What, you don't think I wouldn't join you there?" he said, smiling at her as he kissed the top of her head again. They were definitely going to a spa when she was better if she was this excited about the idea of it.

Date: 2013-01-01 04:56 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Arms Crossed)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"I have to work to keep this flawless complexion now. It's rough being a human," he joked. He would gladly take any and all bodily limitations in exchange for his humanity. Part of that was what made humanity so beautiful.

Date: 2013-01-01 06:13 pm (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Tilted Head)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"That's alright, you look plenty rough for the both of us," he told her, grinning just a bit. She was miserable, but he knew that she was glad it was just the flu and not anything else.

Date: 2013-01-02 03:46 am (UTC)
likesthestooges: (Face Three Quarters)
From: [personal profile] likesthestooges
"I'll be sure to do that," he said, sighing happily at the feel of her pressing even closer to him. It was comforting, after the rough few moments that they'd had. He had no intention of moving for a while.

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