39 * Accidental video

[starchilde_lost]

[Someone's going through papers on a desk. It looked like it had been organized, once, but that organization had been gone. Rachel's muttering to herself, obviously trying to find something.]

I know it's in here somewhere - who the hell was going through this place...?

...Jesus, where's Bobby Drake when you need an accountant?

[She sees a piece of paper and grabs it.]

Ah-ha! Oh, wait, this is from last month's payroll. Where's...

Holy crap, is this Goodfellow's old tab?

[She shakes her head and goes back to looking.]

This is gonna take forever.

Comments

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I thought so. You gonna be late getting home with all that junk to go through?

[starchilde_lost]

Yeah, but not 'cause of this, I'm gonna go hang out with Brennan for awhile, decompress.

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

That's great! Have fun.

[starchilde_lost]

I certainly will.

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

And then you'll tell me about it right?

[starchilde_lost]

Of course. AS much as I can.

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I expect details. Oh and if you need help with the accounting stuff I may be able to figure something out. Computer nerds should be able to figure out math.

[starchilde_lost]

Some details I won't share... if there are details that could potentially be discussed and I'm not saying there are.

I might take you up on that.

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

That's so cheap. And mean!

[starchilde_lost]

Kitty, there are some things... I just can't talk about right now, okay?

[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Of...course. Everything okay?

[starchilde_lost]

Just a little shaky on the whole dating thing. That's all.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

With him or just in general?

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[starchilde_lost]

Either. Both.

A) I'm freaked out about caring for someone I can lose as easily as... easy. And B) his relationship with Shalimar is more... I dunno, intense than I thought. Not like, sexual I think, but more... attached.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

You can...lose anyone Rachel. Just as easily here as we can back home. We both know that...

Attached how?

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[starchilde_lost]

It's... not my place to say. They're not a couple, but she's like a huge, freaking huge person in his sphere and I can't compete with that.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

According to him or her?

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[starchilde_lost]

Her mostly, but there was a conversation I saw between them... I am definitely second, a distant second... if that. And I'm okay with it, it's not like this is serious or anything right now, but it just kinda took me by surprise when I realized it.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Is she the one dating Captain Kirk?

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[starchilde_lost]

Yeah, Shalimar.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Well then she has someone that she's romantically involved with and should be close to. So she should back off with him.

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[starchilde_lost]

It's not... they're like survivors after a disaster, they need each other, or she needs him and he needs to be needed. I dunno, I could sort it out with a deep dive in their heads, but I don't want to.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Emma would probably say go for it. That nobody would ever need to know.

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[starchilde_lost]

Yeah, she would - but Shal's been abused by a telepath, I think and... yeah, I just can't. Not just so I can sleep better tonight.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

That was actually supposed to work to show you exactly why you shouldn't do something like that. Emma would say do it. So you shouldn't because does anyone want to be like her? Other than her creepy Cuckoos.

If you really think it'd be a problem, talk to her? Or you can bring it up with him but guys tend to not give good answers when they're confronted like that. Some give whatever they think you want to hear or just ignore it. Or you could just ignore it and accept what you have. If you enjoy spending time with him, that's good enough.