"I have no idea. But I'm kinda hoping none of it?"

She hoped. She really hoped because she didn't know if she had the guts to have this discussion again entirely sober. She was convinced that she wasn't having the feelings because she was drunk, she was just able to talk about it.

"Because I don't know if I can do this again, I don't know that I won't chicken out, and I want you to know how I feel. That I feel."