starchilde_lost | 25 * Phone a friend

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25 * Phone a friend

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What do you do when you lose that person? Not your parents, or a significant other, although they might be that person, too. I mean the person that was always there, in whatever capacity you needed. You just looked over your shoulder, made a call, lit a signal, whatever and they were there for you. They never let you down - even when you sometimes let them down.

What do you do when that's gone? Or worse... it's going to be.

Do you just tell yourself to suck it up, let it go and enjoy what you still have? Or do you try and figure out a way to prevent it - stop it.

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Is everyone back to normal? Or as normal as we get?

Kitty? Movie?

[OOC: Assume anonymous filter directs back to a dummy network account and please make it clear which part you're replying to. This is Rachel using her best friend's codes against her. Also, I'm sloooowly coming back from hiatus, so forgive me if these tags run a little slow.]

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My friend who is here is dead back home.

That would be pretty close to what I have. My friend was pulled here right before they would have died. The next time they leave the City...

How are you dealing with that?

It's the same thing with me. He could go home any moment and he'll die. And he doesn't know, I don't know how to tell him. Or if I should.
Which is why I need to keep this private, sorry.

To tell the truth, I don't know how I deal with it. I forget it sometimes, and then it's like normal, before he died back home, I mean. And then I remember and -
It's bad.

But I try and think of it as a second chance for him. If he's lucky, he could live here forever, not die at thirteen. And then I think I'm lucky, for getting to be with him again. Even if it's fake, in a way.
It feels real.

It's not a problem, this is an anonymous post for a reason.

My friend... knows. Knew before they left, and then they were pulled... it's hard. I guess I'm lucky I don't have to lie about anything. I don't know how I'd deal with that.

I guess the hardest part is that I realized I won't be there when it happens. I won't get to say good-bye. Did you... I mean I know this is hard so you don't have to answer, but did you get to say good-bye? And if not... do you wish you could, before he leaves the City?

It's alright... I think I've needed to talk to someone about this for a while.

We had to leave him, in the end... But I did kind of get to say goodbye. I was there with him in the end, while he died.
He died a hero. And he died saving my life.

I wish I could tell him all that. But I'm not sure what to say to him, because I don't want to hurt him.

I'm glad that you got that chance to say good-bye.

My friend... she won't be alone, but she won't be with someone she's really cared for and I don't know how I feel about that.

If you can manage it, don't say anything. My friend keeps saying she's okay with it, that she gets to save everyone by dying, and she means it, but she can't stop thinking about it. If you can spare him that? Do it.

And if you need someone to talk to... I can send you these codes. You can post to the Network anonymous and I'll answer because... I don't have many people I can talk about this to either.

I'm really sorry about your friend.
Really.
And you as well. I sometimes think it's harder having to live with the knowledge and the memory than actually being the one who dies.
Then I think I'm a terrible person for thinking that.

I don't think I'll tell him anything.
I wouldn't even know where to start.

I'd really like those codes.
Thank you.

Guilt is hell, ain't it?

Here are the codes:

[Anonymous code attachment.............|]

[ooc: lemme know if you really need the html tags I used.]

Thanks again.
I... I hope it all works out, in the end.

[Ooc: Bold for the "private" tag itself and times new roman type? :) actually I don't know how to do TNR text << >> halp plx? :D]

So do I.

[ooc: I honestly don't tag the subject lines, but the code I use for the text is: [font face="Courier New"]Text[/font] (with <> instead of []) You can put any universal font name, not just Courier.]

...I don't know why I mistook Courier for Times New Roman, lol :D
Also, a very belated thank you for the tags :3

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