"Yes! Because I shouldn't be. Because it means I'm... getting attached and having feelings and those feelings aren't what I want, Aidan, because they always hurt me in the end." Taking a breath, she realized she was saying way, way, too much but now that she'd started, she didn't know how to stop.
"You can hurt me now because I care. I don't want to, I shouldn't, but I do and I think I hate you for it a little, because I was lonely before but I wonder if lonely isn't better than being afraid of how long it is before you're gone, or dead, or whatever it is that fate's going to hit me with next."
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2012-09-02 06:45 am (UTC)"You can hurt me now because I care. I don't want to, I shouldn't, but I do and I think I hate you for it a little, because I was lonely before but I wonder if lonely isn't better than being afraid of how long it is before you're gone, or dead, or whatever it is that fate's going to hit me with next."