21 * My brother's keeper

[starchilde_lost]

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So those of you who don't know the new guy, Nate (psichotic ), he's... family. For me, at least. But he's not exactly the most stable guy and he's immensely powerful. If there's a problem with him, please let me know.

If you do know him, or knew him as I think the case may be, can you contact me? I know... a little but he was gone by the time I got back and no one really told me much about him.

...I'm worried about him. I think he needs a doctor.

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You settling in, okay?

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[OOC: Apologies, because I'm getting pulled into a meeting and might be away for a few hours. Sorry! Kinda back(ish).]

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I'd like to see you try. Don't worry I'll come out for the party and wave and then go back in to be geeky more. I may even make it to super geeky levels.

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[starchilde_lost]

You are NOT leaving me alone with an apartment full of people. You will be there and you will be nice.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Who wouldn't I be nice to? I'm always nice.

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[starchilde_lost]

You're mostly nice unless you're irritated at someone. Not that I think you're gonna be irritated at someone, I just don't want you leaving me alone with everyone.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Is there someone you think I'm going to be irritated with? I suppose I won't leave you alone then. Maybe.

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[starchilde_lost]

You went back and forth with Kirk for a bit. Scotty, too.

...and things with Kaidan are...?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Somehow Kirk can magically make you irritated at him and then a few minutes later laugh at him. But Kirk's a really good friend so I'd never stay real irritated with him for long. Despite his flirty nature he's a great guy.

Scotty and I are good, I agreed to help him and let him give the orders. I'm actually really interested to see what I can learn from him.

Do you really want to be bothered with the last one?

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[starchilde_lost]

It keeps me form worrying about Nate and everything else, so hit me.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

He was home for a long time, I think a year or so. In that time a lot of things happened, he's been fighting these things that basically build races up to their peak potential and then destroy them as some sort of experiment. He'd committed mutiny and was on his way to try and slow down an invasion of them. He certainly gets our lives a lot more now.

But he found someone back home that loves him and I think he loves her.

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[starchilde_lost]

Yeah, that sounds about normal for us, doesn't it?

What does that do for the two of you here?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

That's what I told him. I resisted going "welcome to my life" though.

He told me it didn't change what he felt about me here.

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[starchilde_lost]

Does it change what you feel for him?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

No, it kind of makes me worried though I guess. You know Peter chose someone else over me once so I know it can happen. Not that I'd not understand but I guess it just does. There's also still the fact that I'm terrified of feeling like I did when he left again. It wasn't as much as when Peter died but it was close and here I can't run off and hide from everything you know?

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[starchilde_lost]

Yeah, our run and hide options are kinda limited these days.

But you'd survive it, I know you would. In the end is it hurting you more to deny what you feel or worry about a future that might not happen... for awhile?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I could always just hide forever with my nifty new geeky toys.

I'll deal.

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[starchilde_lost]

I know.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

We both will right? We'll deal.

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[starchilde_lost]

Yeah, we will.

Hey, I asked Laura to come over early party-day to help set-up. That okay?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

We always have.

Of course it is. You know if there are two keys to the place you could just give her one, I don't need keys.

And...um well I guess if introductions are needed in the polite way I'll be introducing Kaidan to you as my boyfriend.

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[starchilde_lost]

I'll get an extra set made tomorrow.

Good. Kitty, I want you to be happy as long as you can and if that means him... it means him.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I'm too cool for keys.

I give it a week of some sort of happiness before everything goes bad again.

...That's just pessimistic, you can hit me whenever you want for being that pessimistic.

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[starchilde_lost]

You're too intangible for keys - there's a difference.

...are you kidding me, half the people I know are watching me like a breakdown is imminent... I'm not entirely sure they're wrong.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Are you saying I'm not cool?

It is, you know that and I know that. You can't deal forever, just like I didn't. It may not be the only one either you're allowed more then one breakdown. As long as you don't try to destroy the City, I don't want to pay for that. But you know if you ever feel like you're going to breakdown I'm always here for you.

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[starchilde_lost]

You're mostly cool.

I won't... I know you are and you shouldn't have to be, but you are. I'm dealing, really I am, but it just feels like everything. Like when I go back I'm just gonna lose it all again, but I need to be back there and... Christ, okay, just... stopping that talk.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Only mostly? That just crushes my ego.

You shouldn't have to be there for me and my idotic problems but you are. It's what friends do right? I understand...you've just got to focus on here while here. Easier said then done, I know.