25 * Phone a friend

[starchilde_lost]

[Filtered Anonymous/Unhackable]

What do you do when you lose that person? Not your parents, or a significant other, although they might be that person, too. I mean the person that was always there, in whatever capacity you needed. You just looked over your shoulder, made a call, lit a signal, whatever and they were there for you. They never let you down - even when you sometimes let them down.

What do you do when that's gone? Or worse... it's going to be.

Do you just tell yourself to suck it up, let it go and enjoy what you still have? Or do you try and figure out a way to prevent it - stop it.

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Is everyone back to normal? Or as normal as we get?

Kitty? Movie?

[OOC: Assume anonymous filter directs back to a dummy network account and please make it clear which part you're replying to. This is Rachel using her best friend's codes against her. Also, I'm sloooowly coming back from hiatus, so forgive me if these tags run a little slow.]

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

The "mmhmm" answer was all.

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[starchilde_lost]

...why aren't we talking?

I mean we say all the requisite "good mornings" and talk about our days but... we're not really talking.

Like...why didn't you come home? When you came back.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Why didn't you come right back out when you got back?

I was almost dead from exhaustion Rachel, my head was so confused and things were coming back from my time in the City and well, Remy was...God it's awful to say but I haven't seen him in a while back home and he was almost impartial.

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[starchilde_lost]

Guess I deserve that.

...but why aren't we talking now? And I know it's not all you - I'm doing it too - but... things have never been like this between us before.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

It wasn't meant as a hit, it was meant as a statement, you didn't come right back either.

If it helps I haven't talked much to anyone. Breakworld was rough to say the least.

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[starchilde_lost]

I... can understand that, I suppose. It's just I don't know how much time I have left with you... you know I'm here, right? Or at least I'm gonna start trying to be.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Rachel...I was only home a few days. Neither of us knew how close I really was. Where I was brought from, that's where I should have died. Or where I do. But it's not even that. Breakworld and what happened before that, it's a lot and you have your own problems without me adding what happens back home to it. Especially when you're not even there so some of it you may never know about.

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[starchilde_lost]

I thought we weren't doing that anymore, that worrying so much about burdening the other that we can't talk about it.

[ooc: feel free to notice that something else was posted here before this, you just didn't get a chance to read it. aka - Rachel gushed and then took it back because her mun realized that she was holding onto that for later.]

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Right. There was something else... It's practically novel length and there isn't a good part in any of it. But if you want to know I'll tell you, it hasn't been fair to you for me to talk to other people first about it all...

[ooc: okay~ that's fine]

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[starchilde_lost]

I do. I mean, in all honesty, I probably wasn't able to hear it. I... kinda freaked out when I realized you were gone. Kinda snapped at a few people. I'm still not sure Gambit and Rogue are speaking to me. But I... even if I forget it when I leave, I want to know now. Because I won't be there and... I want to know.

But we don't have to do it right now. I mean, we can do it later, I just didn't want to drag out the not-talking-talking thing any longer.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

I can do it now. I guess talking about it helps a bit.

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[starchilde_lost]

Then I guess... start wherever. I figure I'm missing a lot so you'll know what's relevant better than me.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Jeez where to start. Well, I go back and the next morning Peter and I wake up and get coffee and then things go to hell. Emma had created psychic manifestations of Sebastian Shaw, Perfection, some other girl, and Cassandra Nova. They attacked the school and my phasing powers went out and I phased down to the earth's core. I made my way back and did what Emma brought me to. Emma requested me for the team because she knew if she went bad I'd take her out. I did. I took her down into the Earth and left her there.

But...the version of her, Perfection, she trapped me in this delusion. Peter and I were married and we had a kid. But the kid was taken away because his mutant abilities were dangerous and Peter left me. Frost put 3 years of life into my head. I went to rescue my kid from the box they were keeping him in. Really it was an alien entity with the consciousness of Cassandra Nova. Turns out Cassandra Nova placed a part of her consciousness into Emma's mind because it was fractured due to survivors guilt or something. Scott stopped her and stopped Nova from jumping to another person's mind.

I wanted to kill her so badly, I had the gun pointed right at her head but I couldn't and then we were pulled aboard a ship by SWORD. Here's a break for you.

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[starchilde_lost]

Here's where I insert a general rant about Emma Frost.

...but I'm kinda glad you didn't pull the trigger. Would've hurt you more than her.

...SWORD? Seriously?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Don't, it wasn't really her fault. It was Cassandra's but it doesn't make it go away. I don't think it could ever leave my mind.

Stands for Sentient World Observation and Response Department. Evidently Breakworld has a prophecy that a mutant from Earth, probably from the X-Men would destroy their planet. So they have a misslle pointed at Earth and Brand wants us to disarm it. The mutant, it's Peter. He's who they want and she knows it. Then the ship is attacked and we're split up into smaller crafts. Those were attacked and me and Peter were seperated from the others. We had to fight our way to where we'd meet the others which including fighting through their army and against kids. Kids who knew who Peter was and wanted to kill him...everyone did there. And I wasn't going to let them so I fought.

We were found by a group of people from Breakworld that didn't believe the prophecy and wanted their world to change. We were taken to their "hospital" and saw their sick and dying. Evidently on Breakworld caring for the sick and dying is a sin. Jeez this is long. I told you it was. It's so much and I'm still trying to leave out stuff. Eventually we captured their Powerlord and were preparing for a final stand.

Scott's plan was for me, Hank, Danger, Brand, Armor, and Logan to go to the missile to diffuse it while Scott, Emma, Peter, Lockheed, and others stayed to hold down the fort. Scott wouldn't let Peter come with him, it wasn't in his plan. Peter was his bargaining chip after all. When we got to the missile no matter what any of us tried we couldn't figure out how to disarm it. Their army was advancing on us and we were out of time. So I phased in. But Breakworld metal is hard for me to phase through and I just went miles into it. Nothing and then it was shot and I was going through space. Wasn't a missile. It was a bullet and there was no way to stop it.

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[starchilde_lost]

They hated Peter like the Shi'ar hate me? Damn, Kitty...

...and you never got out, did you? And that's where you were pulled from, weren't you?

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Yes, I guess they did. They had guns, I used their guns against them. This kid saw him and shouted to kill it. It was painful. Not just to see their world, they're a warrior race and their dying aren't treated or the sick. It's a sad planet. But seeing what it did to Peter that was painful too.

No. They tried everything to get to me. But they couldn't and it was heading for Earth and if it got there, it'd destroy the planet. Emma was talking with me telepathically, she offered to put me somewhere better but I couldn't do that. I think Emma and I became okay with each other then, I...she was genuinely upset and I think she may have really believed it when she said they'd get me out. The only choice left was for me to phase the bullet through Earth. And I was pulled literally right before that.

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[starchilde_lost]

I...

...I would have been able to do something. If I weren't so angry at the Shi'ar, if I hadn't agreed to help the Professor... I should have been there.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

What could you have done Rachel? They had everyone working on it.

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[starchilde_lost]

I have the power of the Phoenix, Kitty, I can create mini-black holes when I need to. I could have done something.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

But didn't you get the echo from space? I think they had everyone working on it back home and up there. Nothing was working.

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[starchilde_lost]

I don't know, I don't... think I'm there yet. I just... there has to be something.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

Don't think you're there? There isn't...we both know that. I'm okay with that...it's the way things had to go.

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[starchilde_lost]

Then, I don't think I'm then.

And no, it's not the way things have to go. It's unfair. The whole thing. Brand using you guys, the whole prophesy thing... it's bullshit, Kitty.

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[phasedcat.livejournal.com]

It is. It's bullshit that Scott made his plan, that he put Peter right where they wanted, it all sucks. Every moment I was back did. That's why here is hard, at least there...I shouldn't be here. And you, seeing you it was painful. Because I won't...see you again.