in the stillness of remembering what you had and what you lost [Aidan]

[starchilde_lost]

Her sleep was, unsurprisingly, filled with nightmares and anxiety. The kinds of dreams she hadn't had in months where family accused her of letting them die and scores of enemies waited in the shadows to tear what little happiness she had apart. She ran through cemeteries and camps and ruined school halls and all the while she knew there was no hope, there was nothing she could do. She would awake, disoriented, crying and afraid and the only thing that kept her grounded was the feel of warm arms around her.

Aidan didn't leave. Every time she woke up he was there, even if she was pretty sure he was asleep, he was still there. And not once did she wake up thinking he was anyone else. It surprised the hell out of her, she thought at least once she'd think she was back on the Jammer with Korvus, but nope, she always knew it was him. She was glad for it, too even if she didn't want to think about why that was too much.

Eventually, she gave up on sleep, lying awake and watching the sun spill through the windows. At some point she'd need to get up, take a shower, eat something, but right now she just snuggled back against the warm body in her bed, glad it was there. Glad he was there.

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[starchilde_lost]

"Can't..." Words failed her, she couldn't reply if she had something to say, she was too lost in a haze of emotion and sensation. This meant something to her, more than the night they'd spent together almost half a year ago, more than whatever it was she had on Leap Day, and probably more than she was ready to admit. For someone who'd been wanting a relationship, now that she was faced with one, it scared her.

But all of that was a complicated mess that set in the back of her mind as her body took over, urging her to meet his thrusts with greater ferocity. The feel of him pushing and thrusting inside her promising oblivion and Rachel dug her hands into his back in a plea that matched her groans of "more," "please," and the prayer that was his name over and over again.

[likesthestooges]

Aidan was more than glad to give her exactly what she was asking for, rocking into her again and again. He could feel his climax building, trying to hold it off as long as possible because he didn't want to lose this moment right here. Their bodies were in sync and there was no awkwardness between them, just a familiar comfortability that he wouldn't have thought possible.

"So... close..." he grunted as he thrust hard into her, burying himself deep inside her.

[starchilde_lost]

There was no fighting it even if she wanted to fight, but the feeling was carrying her away, hard pounding and sweaty skin and a million little shocks all combining to take her higher and higher. Better than any drug, better than any alcohol, and definitely better than crying into her pillow. Voice pitching higher Rachel gasped and moaned and her nails dug into Aidan's skin heedlessly, drawing soft lines over his back as she finally fell, crying out as her orgasm seized her and she let everything go to white with the blessed relief of it.

[likesthestooges]

Aidan rode the orgasm with her, his own following not far behind as he rocked his body against her, driving her into the mattress.

Groaning, he could feel the pleasure surge through him, connecting them in a way that was unique to sex, as if for one moment they were almost one being. He kissed her hard as they rode out their mutual pleasure, Aidan finally collapsing on the bed next to her once he was spent.

[starchilde_lost]

Rachel gave a ragged breath as he pulled away, her body humming with energy in a post-orgasmic bliss. Chuckling, she ran a hand over Aidan's chest, tracing the edges of hard muscle. Yeah, she wasn't letting him get away this time, she really wanted to keep him around this time. "I seriously forgot how good that was. Why didn't we do it sooner?"

[likesthestooges]

Aidan smiled and leaned in to give her a slow kiss. His heart was still pounding and his body was coming down from the high, but this lazy moment felt good. He could stand to relax here for a while with her.

"Maybe because if we had it wouldn't have been so good."

Reaching out, he brushed back a few strands of hair from her forehead.

"And it was... very good."

[starchilde_lost]

"And needed very badly." She kissed him again, luxuriating it the feel of a warm body next to hers. It was something that she already knew she'd want again, not just for the sex, but to have someone to hold her, distract her, cuddle with her. It sounded crazy, especially after her last few weeks of trying to find something casual, but she was starting to think she wanted a real boyfriend.

Not that she was admitting that right now or anything. This was good, what they had was fine, but someday, maybe...

[likesthestooges]

"Then let's not let it go so long between this time," he suggested, kissing her back slowly. It was nice, these lingering kisses that were just for the pleasure of it and not as a pretense to anything else. These kisses were something that he hadn't realized he had so badly missed.

[starchilde_lost]

"I like that plan." And the distraction. And him. She had no idea what she was doing, but as she kissed him, she could feel the crawling voice of pain and loss itching at the back of her neck and she deepened the kiss again.

It was using him. Today, it was using him, later it wouldn't be. She hoped there would be a later at least, but right now, she desperately needed to loose herself as much as possible.

[likesthestooges]

"You are... definitely working on cutting down that between time, aren't you?" Aidan asked, pressing into her again as he kissed her back just as deeply. Not that he had any complaints, but he wanted to be sure of where this was going.

[starchilde_lost]

"Something like that." She was hoping to be able to go back to sleep too exhausted to dream. Too tired to remember what she'd seen the day before. She could do that with Aidan, she knew he was more than capable.

And she wasn't foolish enough to pretend that she just wanted him. Or someone. But right now it was Aidan, someone to be close, to, to share her bed. Someone who could make her feel things she didn't normally feel. Reaching between them, she pulled off the spent condom, tossing it aside to worry about later. Now she wanted to feel him, fell him get heavy and hard and ready for more.

[likesthestooges]

"Definitely no complaints from me," he murmured, kissing along her neck while he pressed himself against her. He liked how she felt against him, the little sparks of energy that raced through him where their skin met.

It was different with Rachel than with any of his other hookups. There was something more there than just sex, a tiny shimmer of complicated emotion that they were both ignoring. It was something to think about later, because right now he was getting hard again and wanted another round.

[starchilde_lost]

She closed her eyes again, feeling every inch of his body along hers, where they curved away, where they met, the pressure of chests expanding against each other with each breath they took. Moving her hand slowly along his cock, she wanted to draw this out, make it last longer this time. She could focus on the feeling, block all the rest out, only the two of them, his lips making her shiver again with barely spent desire.

"Aidan, Aidan, Aidan..." she whispered. "Your turn, tell me what you want? Tell me what we're doing next."

[likesthestooges]

Aidan hissed in pleasure as she began to stroke him, eliciting a low growl from him. There was a tenderness to her administrations that they hadn't experienced before. He rather liked not being so rushed, able to take his time with things.

"I'm going to kiss you everywhere," he said, breathless as his mouth continued to kiss along her body. "Take my time exploring you."

[starchilde_lost]

She breathed deeply, her voice a sigh of pleasure, "Take your time." She liked the sound of that. She liked the feel of it, lips and warm air over her skin. A nice slow burn, long enough to maybe even make her forget the day before entirely.

[likesthestooges]

He kissed down her neck and along her collarbone before moving to the top of her chest. His hands ran along her sides, enjoying the curve of her narrow waist to her strong hips. Her skin was salty from the sweat of their exertion and he couldn't help but grin against her skin at the thought of how different this was from their first time.

Sliding his arms under her legs, Aidan kissed down between her breasts and along her taught stomach, growling happily as he did so.

[starchilde_lost]

Her skin tingled every place he touched her, lips burned every time he kissed her. She whispered his name over and over as he moved on her, giving a gasp as she felt his arms slide under her. Hands found his head, threading through his hair, cradling him as he kissed her. She knew, she remembered what came next and her body ached for him all over again.

[likesthestooges]

Aidan loved the sounds she was making, how his name sounded when she said it like that. If she kept that up, he'd gladly spend the rest of the day here with her.

His teeth teased her stomach lightly, loving how he could feel the muscles of her abs against his lips. God she had a great body. Grinning, he slid down lower on her body, tongue flicking out against her clit.

[starchilde_lost]

Rachel gasped, "Oh, God..." feeling the shock of the sensation between her legs. She was already aroused, sensitive from before, and the stimulation he gave her now was incredible. She was going to fall completely apart and she couldn't wait.

[likesthestooges]

Aidan hummed happily at the reaction he was getting from her. She was completely into it and was already incredibly sensitive to what he was doing. Hands sliding up her body, he continued what he was doing, focusing on her clit as he pressed himself more against her in excitement.

[starchilde_lost]

Running her fingernails lightly over his scalp, Rachel tried to keep her hips steady, tried to keep from arching against those talented and distracting lips. She mostly succeeded, groaning Aidan's name as little teasing shocks jolted through her. There was nothing about this that wasn't sexy as hell, the feel of his hand on her body, lips and tongue between her legs, the fact that she knew this wasn't going to be a one-time thing and it blocked out anything else she might be thinking or feeling.

Which was the whole point, right?

[likesthestooges]

Aidan slid one hand up to play with her breasts while he continued licking her. He could feel her getting closer to losing it and he wanted her to tip over that edge and enjoy making her feel absolutely amazing. There was something great about being getting your partner off while paying no attention to yourself, about being entirely selfless in the pleasure you were giving someone.

[starchilde_lost]

It was scary and exciting the way that he turned her on. Hard and fast and hot and aching and all the myriad feelings he made her feel, pushing past boundaries she didn't even know she had. Her body writhed against him and her hand came to cover the one he placed on her breast, taking it and holding it as she gasped again, "Aidan, my Aidan... oh, God please..."

Her body was its own thing, something she couldn't control and the ache in her center twisted until she broke, biting off a curse as she came hard, hips jerking as the waves of pleasure coursed through her.

[likesthestooges]

There was something about hearing "my Aidan" that sent a shiver down his spine and right then he didn't have the mental faculties to decide if it was a positive reaction or not.

Right then he was too busy focusing on her reactions to put much thought into it. He loved hearing her swear and feeling her body jerk in the pleasure. He continued what he was doing, not wanting to slow down until she had completely run the course and exhausted herself.

[starchilde_lost]

Rachel felt the aftershocks tease her and eventually leave her, leaving her gasping and weak. Still, she had a smile on her face as she threaded her fingers through the hand she held, pulling the fingers up to her lips so she could kiss the tips of them.

"You have the best worst effect on me, know that?"